if tonight ever makes a difference;
the way that i feel,
the way that i'll remember it

swallow the words that i was meant to say.

I FEEL LIKE PLAYING MAPLE. this is catastrophic. i shouldn't want to play maple. noononoonnononono. i won't play maple. I WON'T. but i want to eat siew mai. HAHAHA okay no i shouldn't do that either.

let's stop the clock together,
and know that the timing was right.

chinese o's on monday! how exciting :l i wonder if i can get a B3. okay sounds absolutely totally impossible. I'M SO FAT. i should stop eating so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SNIFFFF.

say goodnight, our last goodbye
i've only got forever and forever is fine

LOL i love random inserts of lyrics! giggles. i'm so stressed, i haven't bowled in forever! and idk if i can dsa ): ): ): sniff.. stress. stress. stress.

{insert}
i'm stronger than that.

SAHMWAN KEELED MAI QOOKIEEEZ FOR THE LONGEST TIME. so i couldn't blog. I LOVE CAO GE! hahaha. i finally found superwoman. my crazy ipod made superwoman play bei pan. ~.~ retardedness. the school is nuts...

chinese hothousing.. for a WEEK. a whole freaking weeek D: of chinese. 4-5hours everyday. with randm tests here and thar. D:

i hate retainers. i can't talk for one, PROPERLY anyway, and then it disturbs my tongue, and i can't swallow water without my retainers getting displaced. sometimes i wish it was just the freaking pain one which didn't move out of place ._.' tanqitanqi.

crap man. my bio so bad T.T ... how did it happen?! okay fine i didn' study enough. butbutbut... :( :( :( i just think my sec4 topics are bad. *nods* i still love cao ge.

T.T

*Talks about cute actors*
lina: did you watch juno?
me: no? i don't watch scary movies! i saw the kid in scary movie and i already felt scared
lina: huh what? juno isn't scary!
me: YES IT IS. the stupid blue kid...
lina: wait, that's JU-ON not JUNO.

LOL. T_T i feel so fail. and i mixed other things up too. sighness :( i'm so noob.

i'm going into withdrawal.

i saw a fat lizardddd when i closed my dooooor. it was HUGE and very close. it killed my brain cells. i'm not going to be able to think tomorrow. WEHH. i'm so stressed. i watched 6 episodes of gg at clare's house HEHE after self-inviting myself over :3 :3 and she was studying all the time T_T... i feel so guilty and inadequately prepared for tomorrow. NEED TO MUG!!!!! NEED. okay at 8, i will go do this, then after i'll bathe, then i'll study until 10.

THAT'S THE PLAN.

STICK TO THE PLAN.

you know whaaat. i wish sometimes i had this ooooberpersonalblog that nooooobody knows about so i can blog about buying my PINK BRAAAAAAAA HAHAHAHA

I LOVE BRAZ~ pretty :D

man, i'm sophat. ): and i'm not doing anything about it. it's sevennnnnn and i didn't gymmmm todaaaaaay. i feel insecure and. well, INCOMPLETE!

but without you all i'm going to be is, incomepleteeeee (LOL, i missed out the l at first, so it was like incompete, which is HAHA!)

City of Bones, City of Ashes, City of Glass
Iz.
D.
Best.
Series.
In.
D.
ENTIRE.
WUURRLD.
i swehre. it even pwnz blue bloods.

KYAAAAAAAAH LOVE! dinner :( get more fats and don't gym some more. i'm going to become 80kg.

life sarks. )x

i think bulemics have very long fingers, because it's not very easy to gag yourself.

also, i think my maids are very bored.

the death subjects are (sofar)

• chinese paper 2
• lit paper 1

the okay subjects are (sofar)

• english compo
• chinese compo

the good subjects are (sofar)

• emath paper 1

okay. tragedy.

oomg today i mugged like considerably alot. but since i was free all day.. okay. it wasn't very productive. hahaa. I'M SO FAAAAAAAAT OMG. T_T cry. chinese tuition.. mas selamat lost weight after swimming over to malaysia ._. lol! free nice pretty bottled perfume! ♥

hehe. feel so gay. UGH i have 2 pimples. although they're shrinking. veeery slowly... poof. i feel fluffy. idk. need to cut hair. split, dry ends annoy me!! i can't wait until exams are over. then i can go for a facial and a haircut and a pedicure and EEEVERYTHING VAIN HEHEHE sofun. i can't wait. T_T.. next tuesday = freedom. for the next for months. then like UGH TORTURE AGAIN. then freedom. then UUUUUUUUUUUGH THE FINAL TORTURE. then..

FREEEEEEEDOMMMMMMMMMMM
for about the next 2 years.

gosh. life sucks.

i went gymming. and i saw. omigod. you won't freaking guess who i saw ._. sigh.

kaay i think i should wear my retainers. LAYTER. idc. yay!! you know what?! my fluffy slippers are back from the wash!! ♥ i missed them so much!! heehee :D

i think i'm very childish. something must be done! let's not sit around and talk/wait

I'M SO MAD (or angry?) I COULD SPIT!
actually i couldn't. i think spitters are like professional. if you're noob it just kind of sticks to your mouth which is GROSS. i think it's from personal experience.

i don't think i should be sharing these personal experiences with everyone.

tell me that it's fate driving me insane, tell me it's the real thing
that keeps me hanging on

OKAY ALL YOU READERS OUT THERE, CAN YOU PLEASE TAG? I FEEL LONELY AND UNINSPIRED TO BLOG. TO KEEP ME BLOGGING, PLEASE TAG!! *cries*

i called macs. for breakfast. i ordered a burger. i think it cost $2.70, but i'm paying $5.70 because of delivery charge.

HAHAHA MY BURGER COST LESS THAN THE DELIVERY CHARGE LOL.

i love cows! i love jay chou! i love jason mraz! I LOVE PUPPIES. i LOOOOVEEEE GOLDEN RETRIEVER PUPPIESSSSS. i love corgis!!!!!! I LOVE FLUFFY.

ooooooh today after church, meimei me and dad went to taka to eat, then we conveniently went perfume-shopping!

discoveries
alien rocks. it's LE. we should get it asap.
chanel has a 'clean horse' perfume
boss has a 'dirty horse', 'banana' and 'chinese restaurant' perfume
lacoste pink ( EVERYTHINGGGG ) rocks.
dior has 'toilet' and others that i can't remember
alot of brands have citrus-like perfumes. some are nice.

chanel has a gay salesman.

and we got mum's mother's day present! it's a pink bottle :D hahaha. and then i got a free small bottle thing!! AWESOME. SO BEAUTIFUL! SMELLS NICEEEEEEEE HEHEHEHE

while we were sampling the samples, our noses died. many times. we have cat-like-noses. except they're not moist, not really pink, (unless it's really cold) and... idk. probably not that sensitive. and that we can identify chinese restaurant smells. hahahaha. that was probably the most retarded one. then the salesperson let us sniff coffee beans to revive them!! then we killed them again. xDxD

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUMMMM. WE KILLED OUR NOSES FOR YOU! ♥

i am a walking paradox. i condemn the same traits that i possess. people like me annoy me.

self centred people annoy me, yet i'm self centred.
talkative people annoy me, yet i'm talkative. very.
childish people annoy me, yet i am the most childish person i know
AND ANNOYING PEOPLE ANNOY ME!!! YET I AM ANNOYING.

WHY?! DOES THAT MEAN I'M ANNOYING TO EVERYONE? DOES EVERYONE HATE ME?

DO YOU HATE ME?!?!
i feel insecure.

T.T

The dinner.

#1: it is a habit for me to heat up my food if it hasn't been cooked juuuuust before i eat, so i take my food and go heat it up. then my mum calls me an ahma, cause i only eat my food piping hot. THEN RIGHT, when i retaliated, my grandma called me an ahchor. (which i totally didn't get) then my mum told me it was GREAT GRANDMOTHER. and if that's not enough, my sister goes on to say, look we're sitting in order of generation! me, mum, ahma, AHCHOR(me)!!

#2: the dog walks up to mama and sits there, breathing
mama: you know ah.. the dog.. when it breathes.. the air very hot.
LOL.

#3: after #2.
mum: go out!! go out tassiee(dog's name) OUT!
mama: just tell her to stop breathing lah. *laughs and continues eating as if she didn't say the most hilarious thing on earth*

#4: this is just random
meimei: GYAAAAAAAAAH
mum: what was that for?! you know when you did that, tassie's ears flopped down the whooole time until you stopped saying it?
me: really really? can i try?
*waits for her ears to go up again*
me: AAAAAAAAAAH
*nothing happens*
*2 seconds later*
meimei: GYAAAAH *earflop*
all: LOL
me: do it again!!
mum: don't D: later the neighbours think you crazy.

HAHA, I LOVE IT WHEN MAMA COMES OVER FOR DINNER! oh, and then mum said she gave us allowance to JULY, which is really weird, because i recall her giving until JUNE last month. so basically she just gave us again ._. ._. ._.

hm, i swallowed a GIANT pill. seriously, you'll never see another the same size. it was HUGE. anyway, i don't think i was supposed to swallow it, but i did anyway. then it got STUCK HALFWAY DOWN MY THROAT and i started gagging myself.

gagging yourself
is totally
UNCOMFORTABLE.
absolutely.
and it makes you tear.

anyway, i started puking out orange stuff, so i thought the pill dissolved into the orange stuff which was REALLY WEIRD RIGHT? but anyway, part of it was still stuck, so i kept on gagging and gagging until it was all out. then like my sink was FULL OF ORANGE STUFF and i was like

wooow. all that in one pill?

then i realised it was the papaya i ate an hour or two ago

HAHAHAHA HOW GROSS.

but seriously, it hurt alot. and it was really gross. and...
it kind of stank. *sigh*

context; in my room

me: do i care that cereal consumption in the pacific islands has increased by 40% since 1970, and the consumption of roots and tubers fell by 7%?!
mum: you won't need it now, but you'll need it next time, when you decide what crops to plant!
me: i'm not going to plant crops!!!!
beth: can you imagine jie working in a farm..
mum: getting her hands dirty...
beth: with her hair tied up all day..
both *looks at each other*: SWEATING??? (in mock horror)

okay, they kind of personal-attack me in my own room and i don't know it (bec i'm reading about roots and tubers)

note to all: i do sweat! i just hate it. alot.

THIS IS THE PLAN.

• study mildly for MYE's
• do homework
• revise on the long term for prelims & o's
• binge on veg ONLY.
• exercise
• study
• study
• study
• study
• bowl

haahaha. okay. i think that's a nice plan, however vague it may seem.

sequence of events.

1. nose leaks
2. blow nose
3. nose hurts
4. stick tissue up nose
5. get laughed at for sticking tissue up nose
6. become depressed
7. commit suicide.

just kidding. but the first 5 are real

good luck to all the mid-year'ers out there! ♥

i believe my problem is that i am EXTREEEEEEMELY impulsive -you'll never know anyone more impulsive than i- which makes me scream at people, everything i've ever felt like saying to them. it gets me into alot of shit. the problem with this is that people can't forgive me that easily. while i'm over the anger and the issue within 24hours, well, idk. but anyone who can forget/forgive/cease to care as quick as i can is not normal. i don't think i'm normal. well, it's a big problem because i confuse people like nuts. like 1 day i tell you i don't want to talk to you for the rest of eternity, then the next day i say hi! like nothing happened.

(honestly, i've done that VERY OFTEN)

sigh. i don't know.

i can admit i'm wrong when i'm wrong. why can't you?

omigod, i'm turning into a bitch.

i hate waiting
and
people who make me wait

i want to kill
people who make me wait a long time

especially when they try to hurry you up before they start
taking their time procrastinating
because something more important popped up
and they don't really care that now YOU have to wait for THEM.

why
are
people
so
freaking
inconsiderate?

have they no mind?
no EQ?
no sense of decency?

i'd tick all of the above.

i hate people who
make plans without informing anyone
then expecting you to join them

s e r i o u s l y .

and to make it even worse,
the people who emotionally blackmail
or WORSE
glare at you;
scold you;
expect you to bow down on your knees apologising for making your own plans

IS IT MY FAULT I HAVE OTHER FRIENDS AND OTHER PLANS?

IS IT MY FAULT YOU DON'T INFORM ME?!

GET
RID
OF
YOUR
STINKING
HOLIER-THAN-THOU
GREATER-THAN-THOU
SMARTER-THAN-THOU
MORE-IMPORTANT-THAN-THOU
MINDSET.

i feel super healthy and super gay. idk. i could get used to eating like 10 strands of noodles and looots of papayas and yoghurt! HAHA! but ytd... aaaah, ytd was tragic T.T

I LOVE MACAROONS, but each one will cost you $2, and 5000 calories. *sigh* so i bought like a few, but only ate one. heh heh heh. i'm going to put on 2kg. then we had ice cream and BUFFET for dinner oumaigawd. buff-et (vs boofayye) hohoho.

i am going to die. why does ouran take like, 1 month to come out with 1 chap?!?! AND NOW IT'S STOPPED IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE, AND MY IMAGINATION IS RUNNING WILDLY. i'm going to die. i cannot take this. the suspense!! the anticipation! NOOOO this is SO CRUEL.

yesterday i bowled okay, considering the fact that i hadn't really bowled regularly for the past MONTH or something.. oh well. and nobody got money, only the old uncles. AND DYOOODE THERE WERE LITTLE BOYS, AND THEY LIKE. PWNED US! LOOOOL so embarrassing. pffff.

anyway, idk. lalala. i'm so mood-swingy, sometimes i just don't get myself. off to find something to do!