words are actually.. quite ineffective in conveying thoughts/messages.. if you think about it..



pictures, music! what would life be without them?

x_x i've been trying to re-learn how to play the piano.. essentially to no avail. i took 2 days to conquer 1 page. and i still can't play it smoothly. and it's not like it's dam hard w/ semiquavers and demisemiquavers and all that. IT'S NORMALISH. (excluding the fact that for the left hand part, the keys are like 4 apart consequtively for 4 notes..) argh finger pain. my left hand has never hurt so badly before! and my right hand too. my joints are like, ARTHRITIC MAN. good grief.

and my arms hurt. idk if it's from spamming ctrl in brbp or bowling. prolly a combination of both :S argh pain. i'm actually going to train with uncle yong.. O_O' so scary pls. so scary. so scary. i dont wanna start bowling again :(

i'm happy being where i am - a taitai!! sort of. w/o the mahjong and high tea and designer things. ok dang that just means i'm a lazy ass clown with a manipedi. with no purpose in life. NOO! but i spend my time attempting to conquer the piano/song! and the 2k jigsaw puzzle.. i cannot find the angel's body parts. there are no more pink pieces.

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Coz I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now,
Oh just leave me now,
It's the better thing to do.

*here's the best part*
IT'S TIME TO SURRENDER, IT'S BEEN TOO LONG PRETENDING. THERE'S NO USE IN TRYING WHEN THE PIECES DON'T FIT ANYMORE

LOL HAHAHHA. it's so particularly apt in my situation. i woke up at 8.30, checked my phone for the time (to discover it was 8.30) and promptly jumped out of my bed, changed and went to run.

1. i'm unfit
2. i'm fat
3. i'm fat
4. i'm fat
5. i'm gaining weight, which makes me fatter

deez eez nawt guud. (say it in the way the russian billionaire in 2012 speaks!)

HAHAHA. tai hao xiao~~ i want to work and make money. to cover for what i've spent. zongs. i need 100 to go back to 2k. but then i wont be able to spend any more money which TOTALLY SUCKS.

i want a combi of angpaos and presents for christmas.
i shouldn't be thinking about what i'm getting for christmas.
it's the season of giving.
because "it is more blessed to give than recieve"! unfortunately i dont rmb which verse that's from.

i have to sleep in 10 mins. i think i should get off. i'm going to force myself back into my sleep-at-10-and-wake-up-at-7 routine because i think it's healthier and.. it doesn't make me go insane.

gawd i just ranted for 10mins.