Friday, February 5, 2010
oh gawd i just stuck a needle right under my toenail. it like, didn't hurt very much but when i think about it there's this insanely overwhelming pain/ache in my heart that i can't explain. i don't think i'll be able to walk properly for a good long time. T_T omg then i can't do my bowling/archery trials and go exercise later and lose weight. all because of this psychologically self-inflicted pain. OH GAWD I JUST STUCK A NEEDLE RIGHT UNDER IT. NO RESISTANCE WHATSOEVER. AND BLOOD JUST STARTED LEAKING OUT. OH GAWD.
I'M IN SO MUCH PSYCHOLOGICAL PAIN. EVEN WHEN I KNOW IT'S ALL PSYCHOLOGICAL, I CAN'T GET RID OF IT. IT JUST GETS WORSE AND WORSE. AAAAAAAAAAAH. I'M DYING. HELP ME. i am sorry, o toenail. i will never stick another needle under you again T_T.. OUCHHH
qn: do you like the backstreet boys?
normal people: yes/no
the abnormally, exceptionally retarded: i may run and hide when you're screaming my name, alright. wishing i could take you in a different way alright~
(this is not a personal attack, it's a demo LOL)
today a guy in rj was playing kiss the rain by yiruma. it was so awesome. it inspires me!! i want to learn how to play it :( but it's so darn hard, sigh.. and my brother threw the scores away. evil fella. k i'm going to like, play piano for 30mins then go gym or sth. wee! i shall lose weight and try not to think about my toe that is BLEEDING SO PROFUSELY. i may actually die of blood loss..
*sigh*