I HATE THE STUPID CHEM BOOKLET W 91 MCQs. it is hateful. and my tut teacher hates me :( she always picks on me.

to do: chinese. loads of it. bio enzymes tut, math p&c tut, probability tut (not due for the next eternity) gp? no? PW. do pw.. sigh.

more irritating/smarter/lazier version of me ->leonggen. always randomly comments and inevitably pisses teacher off and consequently gets ignored by teacher. don't study for test (more than me) DOUBLE RA GET 21/35 FOR BIO LECTURE TEST O_O i thought i got lowest. but walao, chinese pro.

i wish i was better at chinese :| then i wouldn't be so stressed out over it (okay, you can't exactly tell i'm stressed over ANYTHING half the time, but... you get the picture.) i'm sad i can't go to class party's at julia's house on thursday :( :( :( :( :( sadness. why everytime got class outing there is also some ARCHERY THING. tomorrow's training got cancelled. tuesday's also. they say we're a team and it's going to be competition season but.. LOL this is so ultra slack. it's awesome. training cancel rate > miss lim cancel tuition rate. LOL that is saying ALOT. okay, maybe compared to sec3/4 then it's alot. now she doesn't pon many lessons :|

school is so dry and boring. nothing interesting. i wish interesting things would happen... *sigh* moar scandalz plox! i'm still rooting for LG&rae!! it's YUANFEN/TIANFEN <- aiyah, destiny/fate. hate chinese. the other day i thought tangyuan was yuyuan. then i thought i got it right when i said tangyuanfan (but i was really thinking about tuanyuanfan) IS THAT NOT FAIL?

IS THAT NOT FAIL? my grandmother spoke to me in hokkien. said some chinese saying. i was like, you say that in chinese i alr cannot understand. hokkien even worse. SIGH

i am a banana. a pink banana. thank you clare. :3

SO BORED LAH k going to do bio enzymes tut. ciao.

uhuhu, yesterday when i ate tau sar piah on a tissue, love thought something happened to my teeth and looked vair vair worried. it was a classique moment. (today i thought executive was spelt exeqtive. for a while. just a while.)

this is such a lovely inspiring song! sort of. i need to do econs essay UGH. how to do part b) *decompose* 15 marks somemore CRY.

i hope you never lose your sense of wonder

you get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger

may you never take one single breath for granted

God forbid love ever leave you empty-handed

i hope you still feel small when you stand beside the open

whenever one door closes i hope one more opens

promise me that you'll give faith the fighting chance

and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

i hope you dance

(etc. SO NAISE RIGHT)

Love might be a mistake, but it's worth making. ♥

i'm still snacking omg i seriously need to.. exercise.. *twitch* and i need to get black/white/grey/beige sports bras. stupid uber-translucent PE shirt :( :( need to lose weight.

i love emo songs. those old emo songs. i think i miss them oldies so much i'm going to download the reason now. *glimmers* I MISS MY EMOTICONS SO MUCHHH SOB. I cannot express myself to the fullest without them. There is simply this... indescribably vast emptiness in me.

D:

Yesterday, another senior locked himself inside a fire hose reel cupboard thing during the 2nd round of hide and seek. he was vair proud of himself for finding a spot so unlikely that he didn't try to open the door until it was time to go back to the meeting area. then he realised the door was locked and couldn't be opened from the inside. another senior had to go rescue him. it was vair funny. i haz a video. he was wearing a pink shirt.

Yesterday, I went for class outing after archery camp at marina square. I did not bowl because IHATEBOWLING and i am RETIRED. i will not touch another bowling ball for ze rest of mai life. and then...

i got stalked. first time -> up the escalator. second time -> somewhere in b/w escalator and bowling alley. third time -> outside kbox. SRZLY it's like i never learn. even after turning around every 5 steps for the 2nd time. A_A stupid dvc, so wuliao. say you have to go home early somemore!!!! still got time to do this kinda thing *twitch* argghh, i will get you back for this one day.

today, i am planning the assassination of an incompetent librarian who caused my love to be an hour late :( i keel her A_A A_A A_A

Random: i think i have a brain tumour. there is this aching ebb-ey feeling at the back of my head. i think i'm dying.

i actually SOB. i remember when i watched sky of love. HAHAH that was really really epic. michaela and i were taking turns sobbing in the cinema. like sniffsniffbawl LOL. lucky we were somewhere in yishun and the chances of anyone knowing us were like 0. uhuhu~ my eyes are still sore from crying!!!!! and i look like a demon. sorry love, were you scared? :P

ugh. i'm going to take my antibiotic now. i think ive had 4-5 strepsils today. i wonder if they're fattening :S :S :S i'm awfully gluttonous for a sick person. my mum said people with fevers tend to have no appetite but.. i've been ravenous most of the day!

and now, despite my 2 hour afternoon nap, i will proceed to SLEEP SOME MORE because it is what i do best. (or one of, anyway) bullocks, tomorrow's camp is going to involve a lot of running and i can't run. 1. unfit 2. sick 1+2 = gg don't go. i don't think people will appreciate a sick person anyway!! what if i spread le germs! the vast majority does not like my germs A_A

MY EYES ARE STILL SORE and i may be feeling hungry (AGAIN) Good Lord. my contact lens fell out in the middle of the movie... tear overload -} Lubricant -} DAI

OMG I'M SO HUNGRY and i need to take my meds :( :( i'm just glad i don't need to take that godforsaken 1g augmentin tablet. 1g. WHO SWALLOWS 1G TABLETS? i almost died doing that the last time. why do i get sick so often! i am the lousiness :(

okay. i'm going to bed nao. ^3^

my throat is so red T_T i look at it and feel tremendous pain. and i am achy everywhere :( neck ache, arm ache (lolwut, seriously.) this ache that ache headache.. T_T i am miserable. on top of that, i feel hungry very often. and i feel full after eating half a bowl of porridge (lolwut) then gluttony.. then too full.. then medicine.. then some strange gastric-acid-corroding-away-the-walls-of-my-stomach pain... :\ i am sick and miserable. i want to watch the notebook. i think if i cry like how i normally do, my lymph nodes will go into overdrive swollenness and i will die. that shall be the final catastrophe (i love the phrase final catastrophe! thank you brian clark)

i think fevers are less painful? I don't know, the last time I had a fever.... okay that was bad. HEH HEH. i hate you, germs!! i hate you all!! :( i need a hug. (then i'll infect more people) :( sigh. why is life so lose-lose :(

i don't know what's wrong with my eye, it keeps rejecting contact lenses. just hurts the wholee day. i want to go for lasik A_A (but omg, slice cornea then sizzlesizzle. it's just too freaky... T_T)

my stomach is so awfully fat :( it's awful. SOOOOBB!! homework.. tuition tomorrow..

what else? RIP - buy barley, do titration curve w standardised vit c, buy log book, get home on time, don't die...

HMM the last one's a bit tough HEH. oky, to bathe! yay!

The most beautiful lyrics.

Some say love it is a river

That drowns the tender reed.

Some say love it is a razor

That leaves your soul to bleed.

Some say love it is a hunger

An endless, aching need

I say love it is a flower,

And you it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking

That never learns to dance

It's the dream afraid of waking

That never takes the chance

It's the one who won't be taken,

Who cannot seem to give

And the soul afraid of dying

That never learns to live.

When the night has been too lonely

And the road has been too long.

And you think that love is only

For the lucky and the strong.

Just remember in the winter

Far beneath the bitter snow

Lies the seed that with the sun's love,

In the spring, becomes the rose.

i will be happy! just keep swimming just keep swimming just keep swimming swimming swimming (: we make choices everyday. i will choose to look at the bright side of things

anyone can see

nothing really matters to me..

Bohemian rhapsody!! love (:

don't stop me now is also love, the mcfly version haha.

THIS SONG HAS APPEARED TO HAVE DISAPPEARED FROM THE FACE OF THE EARTH

i was only thinking of you, hoping you were thinking of me

2 hearts beating just like 1 against the world, baby

i was only dreaming of you, hoping you were dreaming of me

i could never live one day without your love ♥

oh so sad i miss the song :( haven't heard it in ages. i need moar songs!!!

I SHALL DEDICATE THIS POST TO CLARE, LEO AND MUM! thank you for cheering me up yesterday (: especially leo! i am so sorry for my mid-life crisis thing. i do hope you're not scared! thanks for sticking around. clare too! i found it really funny because normally i'm the one giving advice, not taking it and the one giving comfort, not being comforted haha. thank you mum for saying there's always a silver lining on the darkest clouds (although that is the cliche above all cliches and not true most of the time) it is still much appreciated! i thank God for you guys (:

i want a mac for photobooth! it's so fun and i think it is SLIMMING! omg :O imagine a slimming webcam thing. isn't it naise? but unfortunately it doesn't support msn vair well *sigh* not cool :(

lecture.. test... biological.. molecules...

clare: lipids are kinky

LAMEEEEEEE LAME LAME LAME LAME. kinks are caused when there is a point of unsaturation on the hydrocarbon chain of a fatty acid due to the presence of a carbon-carbon double bond. it causes a 30 degree kink A_A hence kinky. omg too lame.

i always wondered what it'd be like to be with someone similar to i... leo, are you similar to i? :O no, you're moar childish. TEEHEEE (i insist.) hmm. quite similar, i think! how scary! hahaha. thank you for coming over today! i missed you so march xPpPp. now i am tired and sleepy.

carbohydrates are the boring. argh, panda eyes are coming back and OMG I DON'T WANT TO RUN/JOG/MOVE TOMORROW please, please can i pon? T_T... i think i cannot. i shall embrace the warm embrace of my bed soon ♥ awesomeness ^3^

GOODNIGHT WORLD!

russell is a retard, he keeps trying to scare me. omfg, tiffany succeeded in the canteen a few days ago. she was right next to me and i turned around and she went RAAAH and i screamed. SCREAMED! those genuine omfg-there-is-a-cockroach-in-my-sight-flying-towards-me-omfg screams!! it was quite insane. i am sleepy.

Believe there are people out there who love you, whether you know it or not

Believe there's a reason why we're here

Believe we can made a difference

&even when your hope is gone, move along, move along, just to make it through.

14 I have seen all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind.

15 What is twisted cannot be straightened; what is lacking cannot be counted.

16 I thought to myself, "Look, I have grown and increased in wisdom more than anyone who has ruled over Jerusalem before me; I have experienced much of wisdom and knowledge."

17 Then I applied myself to the understanding of wisdom, and also of madness and folly, but I learned that this, too, is a chasing after the wind.

18 For with much wisdom comes much sorrow; the more knowledge, the more grief.

I WISH I COULD LIVE IN MY OWN FANTASYLAND. I envy autistic people. Doubt they have a care in the world :\ they just exist within their own reality, created within their mind. Must be bliss. Unless they're intrinsically masochistic, then there's nothing much to say.. LOL.

Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Since I'm typing with correct punctuation, there must be something wrong with me. I want this week to end FAST. I want the weekend to come. I want _____________. That's all. Is it too much to ask for? :\

I want to retreat to the depths of my idealistic reality, where nothing hurts. Stupid tests. Stupid stupid stupid things that we're forced to do but don't want to. Stupid training. Stupid running. Stupid awful feeling of being alone. When did it become like this! I used to be fine on my own. Now I feel...... Incomplete. And there's nothing I can do about it. This sucks.

Dependent = Lose.

Independence = Win.

What can make this void disappear!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so tired (of life).

I crave alone-ism. Nobody to hurt you, nobody to hurt, nothing. Emptiness is win! Nothingness is win.

A: My English teacher went to Japan.

Me: My Japanese teacher went to Japan.

Fangting: My English teacher went back to Finland. He was.. Fin..land..ian.

Me: LOL HE WAS FINNISH.

According to Clare, Newzealanders are New ZeaLANDERS so she made a double mistake.

Clare: alpha helix repeating monomer is alpha glucoes?

Me: Hold.... on.... ALPHA HELIX IS PROTEINS DARLING! (LOL)

YAY, CLARE MADE A STUPID MISTAKE! welcome to the club, love! ♥ you haz joined the leagues of me. :x

life's not so bad now ^3^

i officially dislike the ____ in archery. she's so le poseur/attention-seeker. bleargh. can't stand people like that bleargh x2. i want to fire my maid. she doesn't do her job well. and she rebels. i said thank you to her for carrying my bag, and she said you're not welcome. i slap your face plsssxzxz.

need to stop bitching. i'm in an awful mood, had kfc. i feel so darn fat now. and i still dislike _____ so that makes it worse. damn le poseur. gawd, i need t see her face for 2 years. fml.

things haven't been going my way the whole day... Mood: sad/depressed/lonely

me: *act blur* lu gong simi?

dad: WAAAH, LU somethingsomething jberjghbaejrbgaejhrbg hokkien aejrbgaejhbgjhaetbjkahetg?

me: hahahahaha *hysterical laughter* lu jbrgjaberkjbga hokkien rbgauebrguebgraeg hahahaha *moar hysterical laughter*

dad: wahlao, you didn't understand a thing i said right!! dam sad man. wasted on you..

me: *hysterical laughter*

dad: why you can laugh so hard at me! oooho, i remember the time... *hysterical laughter*

me: what?!?!?!

dad: remember the time in the car you *motions hitting head against window* *hysterical laughter* hahahahaa!

omg, that was so embarrassing/lulworthy. the time i was admiring my hair in the window because it was wavy, then i moved too much to the left/mirror to get a better look but forgot there was a WINDOW IN MY WAY so i hit it rather hard. (loud sound..) dad went insane after that. bleargh.

thank you clare for your awesome birthday present! i'm going to cover the zoo picture/vietnam picture with black paper!! ^3^

(shina actually remembers zestini and velique A_A LOl!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

this pen on this paper

will never be heard because

uhuhu that song is so nice. i wish i could sing :( my voice is so horrible. the only instrument i can play is the ipod *SIGH*

how awful, why did i accept madeline on msn!! now i'm obliged to do RIP. this is awful T_T

SHIT MAN I WANT TO BE BULEMIC. sigh :(

TODAY/THISWEEK/THISMONTH/THISYEAR'S LULZWORTHY QUESTION!

"How thick is your skull, love?"

ugh, i have an hour until tuition. wai, tuition, wai? T_T at least i don't have to pay attention during math lectures. SACRE BLEU, they are going to start on permutations and combinations next week. i don't wanna!!! :( :( :( :( :( sadfacesadface.

today i found someone else who mixes up words :D she said it's because she wasn't paying attention, but she called a phospholipid amphoteric HAHAHA (LIKE AN OXIDE!!) it's supposed to be amphipathic. hahahaha. sofunneh.

amino acids, in solution, are zwitterions! zwitter-ions. so cute. soooo cuuutee. like yesterday (i think) during PW, chentian copied me when i said baby turtles were SOOO CUUUUUUTEEE *in relatively high pitched voice compared to my normal manly voice* he actually copied me, imitating the high-pitch-ness. everyone was O_O O_O O_O O_O shocked. because he's like the very very serious on-task kind, don't digress, don't tolerate nonsense one. we are starting to unthaw the coldness of his heart :O (sadly, at my expense. SADLY.) everyone mocks me! isabella said something in chinese, then chentian laughed. then he wanted to say it in FRENCH... then ian joined in in speaking french.....

*decompose* like chinese isn't bad enough. eeyargh sometimes i wish i could speak chinese better, or understand it at least :( blogging is.. boring. because

NOTHING FILLS THE VOID. hahaha. seriously! i don't know. i have like nothing to do to procrastinate now! i'm going to start relearning how to play the piano (again) weeeee i hope it works this time *glimmery eyes*

damit. the cute plasters that i bought are absolutely tiny. i think the only kind of injury they can cover is like, a bruise from taking blood. or an injection. seriously it's MINISCULE. (american english fail, if google chrome spellchecks against some american english dictionary. minuscule? i don't think so.)

OH GOSH BUT THEY ARE SO CUTE, I DO NOT REGRET BUYING THEM ^3^!!!!